Before I had my first ultrasound, the fact that I was finally pregnant seemed so surreal. I mean, I
finally had what I wanted most in this world. B's and my prayers have
finally come true but still, I was scared it was just a dream... a temporary bout of insanity.
Maybe I just imagined the e-mail from my doctor confirming I was pregnant. Maybe I just imagined the "+" sign on the pregnancy test. I mean, were we really finally going to become parents?
Our first ultrasound was scheduled for June 2. Almost a month after I was told I was finally pregnant! I didn't think I could wait that long to confirm the pregnancy. I asked the nurse if I could have it earlier but she declined saying that 8 weeks is just perfect for our first ultrasound.
So, June 2 came and B and I were nervously waiting for the doctor to start the ultrasound and when she did, she pointed to something that was faintly flickering and she asked, "You see that? You know what that is?" I said, "Yeah, that's the heart!" and she moved the wand to the left side, paused for a moment and said, "You see that?", while pointing to another figure. Immediately, my heart soared and I screamed, "I'm having two!" The doctor nodded her head and then continued to say, "Now, let's see if there's a third one, shall we?" whereas B immediately chimed in, "Oh, two's enough!" The doctor and the nurse started laughing.
Both B and I had tears in our eyes. After almost three years of trying, hoping, crying, begging, break downs and what have you, our dream... our desire has finally come true. We were finally pregnant and we were having TWINS!
I can't say I was really surprised. Before the ultrasound, I already had a feeling I was having twins. I don't know why... maybe it was intuition. First clue? My bHCG level was pretty high for 4 weeks. I even asked the nurses about this to which they told me not to assume anything before my ultrasound on June 2nd.
I was also CONSTANTLY hungry. Thirty minutes would pass after my last meal and my stomach would be growling again. No matter how much I ate, I wouldn't feel full. I was already starting to show at 6 weeks, which to me seemed weird. So I kind of had an inkling that we were having twins.
The fact that we're having twins makes it even more special for B and I. We asked God for one child and got two instead. Sometimes, when I tell acquaintances that I am having twins, they give me this disgusted look and tell me that I'm probably going to have a hard time. I always want to tell them that sure, it may be harder to raise twins but it's
double the love,
double the kisses and
double the fun! I know the road will not be easy but I am certain that there is a reason that God gave us two instead of one.
The timing has also been perfect. We found out we were pregnant 2 days before mother's day which made such a wonderful surprise for our families and we found out we were having twins 1 day before our trip to Europe, which made our vacation even extra special.
Right now, I'm just praying that I'll have a safe and uneventful pregnancy and that I can do everything in my capacity to provide a healthy environment for our babies.
Two faces to wash, and four dirty hands
Two insistent voices, making demands
Twice as much crying, when things go wrong
The four eyes closing, with slumber song
Twice as many garments, blowing on the line
Two cherubs in the wagon, soaking up sunshine
Work I do for twins, naturally comes double
But four arms to hug me, repay all my trouble.
~Author Unknown
